You are at a new years party

You feel miserable.

The new year begins with people dancing and signing and you stand aside, empty and feeling worse.

You finally muster the resolve to leave.

You walk the dark streets, mostly empty now we're some hours in and everyone is home or at a party

You go up old stairways, trudging up the streets of a town you have known your whole life.

You find a quite spot, from which you have a great view from most of town.

Now that you are alone that void in you seems to become sated.
you begin to cry in silence, the stars above you and the lights of the town beneath like a great ocean stretching in front of you.

Finally, you feel like yourself again.
You can hear yourself think and you feel joy, you feel peace as you finally become who you really are.

Away from the people who mean nothing to you and their meaningless rituals.
it had been so long you had forgotten, what you like and what you want and how these are not always the same thing.

You are satisfied.